Sebak So Sad!

I knew that this day would come, and today it did. Hari ini merupakan hari pertama Kaseh pergi school on her own. Usually she would be accompanied by my maid Karimah. Kaseh is probably the only kid in the kindy to be allowed to have a guardian for almost 2 months! My justification to her teachers is that , she just turned two and she would need someone to take care of her in school. I know, it sounds crazy to be sending my two year old to school, but it's play school where she learn to sing, develop her motor skills and most importantly socialise.
It's from 9am to 12 noon daily and after school she spends her time at Opah's house. I think that's fair.

Sol took the day off and i took half a day, just to make sure that her transision goes on smoothly. For a 2 year old losing a Kakak ( Karimah 's contract ended and she as gone back to Indonesia for good) and now having to deal with school alone is quite traumatic , i can imagine. So we wanted to make it as easy as possible for her.

Not so easy acctually, cause i ended up tearing when i saw her crying and calling our names. It was as hard for me as it is for Kaseh. I had to be strong and told Sol that i would wait in the car, while he settle Kaseh with her teacher's in school. Oh man that was tough.

Kaseh was crying non stop, and i just couldn't take it.

We were asked to pick her up at about 11.15am. Slightly earlier than usual cause it's her first day in school alone. Sol and myself headed for breakfast at a nearby mamak. That was acctually our first time in a very long time to have breakfast together, just the both of us. Even that, we couldn't stop but talking about Kaseh.

We got back to her kindy at 11.15 sharp. I was acctually nervous.

Never seen Kaseh so sad, hugged her thru out our journey back to grandma's house. I checked her progress with her teachers and they say it's normal for kids to cry and be sad , especially when their parents is around. Let see her progress for the whole week.

Kaseh's Progress:

Monday - Sol took the dah off and i took half day off. She was crying and Mrs Geetha had to calm her down. We left her crying and ran off, the more you linger at the kindy the harder to let go. So my advise is just leave her. You gotta be cruel to be kind.

Tuesday - From now onwards it's just me, cause Sol needs to be at work by 8.30 am and i have the more flexible work schedule, thank god. Followed her in to kindy, tried distracting her with some toys, tried sneaking out quietly but she is quick to notice. Once she sees mommy isn't around she cried and cried, teachers had to come her down. Picked her up at 12 noon today, and she was happy to see me, still sobbing but able to follow instructions from her teacher like , wear your shoes first Kaseh and saying good bye to everyone before she ran off to greet me. It' s a welcoming bonding between me and Kaseh. Before this she had Karimah to rely on, so it didn't really matter if mommy is around or not.

Wednesday - Kaseh noticed the routine already and started to merenggek the moment she woke up from bed, refusing to go to school and even refusing to shower. She woke up late , at 9 am and we only got to school at about 945am! She refused to shower ,thus i wiped her using a soft tower with luke warm water and got her ready for school. She showed another form of retaliation when she threw up in school. Ok 3rd day is suppose to get better right ? But seems like a lil bit tougher than yesterday.

Thursday - Still refusing to shower, and this time she wanted me to hold her while i'm driving.(please do not do this on the road ya). She begged to not be send to school, and started sobbing, i was so sad but i remembered what her teacher said, that she can't lose momentum, and we must keep going in order to set a routine for her.

Friday- Surprisingly she woke up very early today. She showered and was her chirpy self until she notices that i made a turn to the kindy instead of grand ma's house in BU 2.Started crying
But i had to be strong and leave her with aunty shiela.

I have a CNY lunch in the office and had to get Kaseh to go on the van with uncle ragu for her trip back from school, i couldn't pick her up from school and i got a little worried. But since Aidil and Amyra ( Kaseh's counsins ) will also be in the van, i was a bit relieved.

In the office, i got a bit worried, i wasn't sure how Kaseh will take the van ride. So i left the office and waited at grand ma's house just to check on her. In fact she did very well!

I got back just on time for the office CNY lunch.

Phew, what an adventure. I am so glad that tommorrow is the weekend ! But come Monday we will face another adventure !

Thanks for reading XOXO !

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